The End

27/12/12

I remember the joy i had when i was on my way to picked you up. The thrilled i experienced knowing that our journey together were going to began.
I was overjoyed that i couldnt bring myself together when trying to got my act to properly asked you to come with me, it was so surreal. I loved the feeling of closeness i shared with you, everything was just right, like we were supposed to meet, i felt like in my whole life before you was waiting for that moment. It was love, not at a first sight cuz i have loved you before i actually met you. It was a fine night, my joyous moment, of which i treasured.

We had going through a lot, our bond grew stronger, we were making promises and vows, you gave me purpose, i finally have someone i can call my own. You make feel what i never felt before. The feeling of knowing that i am loved,that someone out there can make me feel loved - it was victorious. For my concern, i had everything i needed and i knew that the only right thing to do was to dedicate my whole for the love i felt from you - everything was worthed. 

Thank you for your caring, understanding and for loving me despite all my flaws and insecurities,Thanks for being my best friend, for always being there for me and made me feel belonged. You were the only one that accept me for who i am without judging me. It was you that i had my best days with, you made it possible for me to be happy. 

Thank You -  I love you

27/12/17 

You are not mine anymore, like all the other relationship the boredom drove drove us to do what we werent meant to do to each other, we count the distances, we grew apart. Lying and betrayal were inevitable.
We were both at fault, i also had my part in that.

Im so sorry i wasnt enough for you, i am sorry that what we shared didnt manage to be the reason to earn your loyalty and honesty. I am so sorry i couldnt gave you the ideal perfection you had in your mind.
Most of all I'm sorry that you lost yourself being with me, i'm sorry that i drove you away from the real you. 

I'm sorry i didnt put enough effort !

I regret that i had to see you changed into someone you used to loathe, i am sorry that you had to hurt me in order to escape the uncertainty of being with me. I am sorry i couldnt offer you the happiness you deserved.

You have the right to be happy, to be fulfilled, to feel accomplished.
I wish that the pain you inflict on me worth the happiness that you seek. You deserve all the happiness life could offer.

I hope you find the one thing that will deserve not just your love but also your dedication, loyalty and honesty.

I hope you find your happiness.

I will miss you! #Goodbye #Lissabel 

Let you be the real you

Its good when the plans is actually work just as it should. been wondering quite a lot if i could get through this mess. funny how life could turned so fast without we even realized it.

As for now i think i really should stop planned and put up targets cuz not all of it will work and would meet the expectations. Life is nothing but us, the outcome of it really depends in us. The daily activities we had is far from the definition of living the life, to define our own self and made up our existence counted is somehow the most important things to do. i know it sounds a lil bit idealis, but sometime been plain and bold is all we need. dont mixed up things and complicated your minds, its only bring you out of your thing from yourself.

Let the life waves and Enjoy its upside down.

Undecided...

                                  
                           Tell me not, in mournful numbers, life is but an empty dream

This is insane, I cant help myself for not thinking about some particular things.
it just keep popped up on my mind. At some point, i miss the old me already. I cant deny i am a lot better now, and after all i'm experienced enough which is so great cuz i can ease myself for the problen that happened to be the obstacles in my life recently.

but you know, its not about the meassurements of how good i am that i'm aware of, like right now ; but its just something more. We are after all just a creatures and luckily we meant to be the one who control the most with the gift that we have. we've had a particular ability that others creatures only dreamt off. i dont say that there is a race here among the creatures, all i am saying is that somehow sometime i found myself pretty messed up with this very special gifts. its unbearable really.

have you ever think that our mind is actually playing with us, like a lot. or should i mention some examples of how my mind usually playing tricks on me ?? Its embarasing, dont you think? *gw doang kali yah* -_-)

I feel the trouble in me..!! i can hardly ease myself, specially this very moment.! the only thing i feel its reality is the love that i shared with a very special people, a very special family, friends and lover. i treassured it.


sometime, in my very loneliness i think i need to examine myself ,  get myself some special activity to meassure this or maybe add some colours in my not really rainbow life.

#Its left undecided# 
any comments will be much appreciated 

by--> the ghost inside me

Postingan sampah

Mungkin kalian tidak seperti saya, yang telah terlalu dalam terjerumus dalam ilusi yang entah darimana asalanya, aku bahkan tidak bisa membedakan sesuatu yang harus aku lakukan dan sesuatu yg tidak perlu aku jalani dalam hidup. semua semata sebuah kebiasaan dan kegiatan keseharian, mana mungkin bisa dimaknai kalau semua yang saya lakukan hampir selalu terasa kosong.

beberapa orang biasanya mengatakan ttg ketakutan mereka akan rasa sakit, rasa bersalah bersalah terhadap sesama dan mungkin takut akan mati. sebaliknya yang saya rasakan ttg ketakutan yang ada diri saya adalah  rasa takut akan hidup. I feel sorry for myself. i really am.

bukan hal yg gampang ketika anda tidak bisa mengerti diri sendiri, dari hal yg paling gampang sekalipun. Life is sucks sometime.!!

To be continued...

Love is Love

When I love someone, I certainly want that someone to be mine.
I want to spend all of my time with her
I want to love her right and make her realize how dear she is to me.
For me, the feeling is important.
I know some people definitely have the same thought.
LOVE is what matters the most.
That’s how love works: from the heart and transform itself into deed.

However, look at our surroundings! Can you find anything as pure and beautiful love?
Beat me, you can never find anything like that. Even if you find it, the ratio is 1:100.
Nowadays, all that matter is SEX.
I don’t despise sex and people who agree to this statement.
I’m no clean too. I sometimes do the dirty talks and also have dirty thoughts.
I just don’t understand how people have misunderstood things.

The “be mine” is NOT about you surrender yourself in the act as in sex.
Love and sex are two very different things.
Once, sex was an act of love. Sex is to be sacred but not anymore.
Sex is a lust.
A lust is the act of wanting someone physically. Only the body that is important.
No more, no less.
Hence, love is no sex and vice versa.


I don’t say that sex is wrong. It’s right when the timing is right.
It means you can manifest your love by surrendering yourself in the sexual act with the right person.
Sex is only right when you do it out of LOVE and NOT out of LUST.
And one thing, you can never use this as an excuse saying:
“Of course we did it because we loved each other. Who are you to say that what we did was out of lust and not love?”
Yeaaaah…., OK!! I’m no one. And that’s because you “loved” each other.

If you truly did it out of love then you’ll never say what supposed to be “love” become “loved”. Because when a person truly loves you, sex will never be the point which will make him or her stays by your side. It’s because of who you are.
It’s because of how precious and how such a darling you are to him or her.
Because if sex is the reason why he or she stays now, then they won’t stay as long as you need them to.
Like the feeling after the orgasm that will never last longer, that’s how the little thing you called or misunderstood as love will fade away.
They will fade like the bubbles in the air before you know it.
So, do it with the right person. Do it when the time is right.
And do it out of love.


ps : you will always know when u r in love, just dont complicate ur mind. stand and fight, do your very best. for in the end you'll realize the true love of ur life is what u have always needed.

Till then

Hey, Life

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Everything happens,it's just happens without any reasons that's my theory because i've tried over and over to find explanation, but Unfortunately it doesn't make any sense, 

For me life is like a war,you have to be a fighter to get whatever you want, you'll never get anything ,if you keep playing the victim role,you have to fight as much as you can, you are the only one who can choose which role suits you !. 

So listen carefully dear life ,i'm going to fight till the end and keep going in my life and i won't give you the chance to win this game ,i'm the winner and i'll always be!. that's my choice !

Rule your life fellas.. till then

Welcoming December, 1st Post

First of all, I thank God for December is finally here..
Cant wait for Xmass,  hope i could be able to take a vacation back home to visit my parents, family and friends down there... 

I've missed them so much, !

I had a lot of plans in my mind to spend my days in december, and off course some target that i'd try to be achieved on this month to meet the expectations, too much things need to be done. 

I had a lot off expectations.. thats my problem,

like seriously, cuz some say, too much expectations could kill you..

Well,  i hope not.!!

 

Things are as simple as 1, 2, 3. 

But we always complicated things by multiplying it. 

My life is simple, please don't complicate it further. *talking to myself*

I asked, how do you define success? 

Everyone have a different answer to it. Some say wealth, some say a successful career, some say a happy family, some say all of everything. 

I asked myself, and find myself in a dilemma.

Sometimes, I think success is when I'm at the peak of my career, when I perform at my best.

Sometimes, I think success is when I have a loving family, and have excess money to not worry about my living.

Sometimes, I think success is having all I want.

- You are Persihable Item, Live Accordingly ! -

If you ask me now, and hopefully in years to come, I would say:

Success is when I woke up in the morning, and find myself smiling, anticipating the day.

Success is when I'm doing what I love.

Success is when I have no regrets.

and just maybe,

Success is when I've achieve/done what I once thought impossible.

Welcome December, Be good to me ^^

Show some love

Apa ada dari antara sobat sekalian yang pernah mengeluh atau mempertanyakan sikap kita ke sesama ? Jika demikian,sobat sekalian harus merubah sesegera mungkin cara pandang yang seperti itu, karena pada ujungnya semua yang kita dapat selalu setimpal dengan apa yang kita beri ?

pada percaya kan, pada peribahasa "siapa yang menabur benih yang baik akan padanya diberi hasil yang baik juga' selalu begitu.. kadang untuk moment tertentu kita mempertanyakan hal ini, karena kadang hidup tidak begitu adil bagi kita, tapi pernahkah kita berpikir bahwa apa yang kita tabur di dunia ini gk seharusnya kita nikmati hasilnya di dunia. untuk akhirat pun yang dihitung adalah sikap kita ke sesama.


So, bagi sobat blogger semua yang percaya dengan adanya surga, dan yang mau kalau nanti setelah meningalkan dunia ini ingin berbahagia di surga maka ketahuilah, Agama gk selalu menentukan bagaimana seseorang di mata Tuhan tapi sikap kita lah yang memberi makna akan diri kita di hadapan Tuhan...
Agama adalah Media, selebihnya setiap orang mempunyai tanggung jawab sendiri akan sikapnya.

So.. nunggu apa lagi.. Mari bercerita,berbagi dan ber...ber... lainya bersama  :))
tentunya in the good way yah... ^^

at least give it a try, Good luck anw

Stay up, Live !

“If everything you say gets laughed at...

then you become afraid of everyone...

and are no longer able to speak...

even knowing all that does is bother everyone...

Your heart...

....shuts down...

And your words die....” 

“That was courage,. Not doing something without being afraid, but doing something even though you were afraid.” 

To you out there....

 @My room... ^^Wondering things about you.^^

They said things happen when we least expect it.^^
I have never thought that waiting for your message will be what I’m doing tonight.

Talking to you is an addiction. Seeing you make me nervous (==)

I have never thought that you would impact me and my life.
I want to know you better. I want to understand you :)

Is this Love ??

 

Gives and Forgives, in loving Memory...Andre Simoes

 " Kita harus bisa saling memaafkan, karena semua orang pernah dan akan berbuat salah." 
- Avo Andre Simoes

Apa jadinya kalo orang yang anda cintai dan yang mencintai anda diambil dari sisi anda ? semua orang akan mempunyai uraian statement yang berbeda, mungkin.. namun yang pasti, konteks uraiannya adalah perasaan sedih karena kehilangan.

Pertama banget ngerasa kehilangan seseorang dalam hidup saya adalah ketika Kakek, dari Ayah.. Avo Andre,, meninggal dunia, November-8 Tahun yang silam, beliau dikenang sebagai pribadi yang gk suka membenci dan hampir selalu bisa memaafkan orang lain. Pesan beliau yang selalu menjadi memori dan cerita bagi segenap keluarga adalah bahwa, " Kita harus bisa saling memaafkan, karena semua orang pernah dan akan berbuat salah." mungkin hanya kalimat simple namun apabila benar2 kita praktekan sungguh akan menjadi kebiasaan yang membawah berkah yang tulus.

dalam keseharian kita, membiasakan diri untuk menghindari masalah lain yang mungkin akan lebih rumit dengan cara saling memaafkan sanggat bermanfaat bagi kita.  

Imagine, People live in peace and forgive each other ?

God gives and Forgives, kenapa kita ngak ???

Rest in Peace - Descansa em Paz Avo Andre Simoes, 
We all always love and pray for you.

Live up, Enjoy the ride.!

 

You meet people who bring out the best in you and people 

 who bring out the worst in you.

Both kinds show you what you are capable of.

 

 **The people who challenge you the most, 

they are actually your spiritual guides who are showing you 

where you still need to evolve. 

 

Fill what empty, With Love.. JAH

 

Relax and Live

Hello ! :)
Anyone still drop by at my blog ? *clear dust* 

Saya udah terlanjur sering bertanya pada diri sendiri mengapa kadang bahkan biasanya orang melakukan hal hal tertentu hampir 100% tidak sesuai dengan apa yang menurut saya lebih efektif dan efisien, singkatnya.. kenapa orang orang kelihatannya mempunyai cara yang hampir selalu berbeda antara satu dengan yang lainnya, meskipun ketika dihadapkan dalam konteks yg sama dan akibat yang sama seandainya mereka gagal.. !

Maybe the answer is, we all have different expectations in life. We want to achieve different results. Different aims. Different expectation. Different believe. And that is what differentiate us from others. Unique in our own way. 

Trus, apakah kita semua terjebak dengan perbedaan melekat pada diri kita sendiri yang memberi arti dan merefleksikan pribadi yang berbeda atau justru sebaliknya ? well, mungkin kekurangan dan kelebihan antara perbedaan dan persamaan kita dengan seseorang itu terlalu relatif untuk di diskusikan. tapi saya yakin kita semua pernah sejenak mebingungkan diri dengan hal hal seperti ini.. 

 
What we have to do... is to find a way to celebrate our diversity and debate our differences without fracturing our communities. " H.Clinton "

Ohhh,, Maybe Yes

I took public transport to college today and saw scenes that inspired me to think. One of the reason I like to take public transport is to see and observe the surroundings and people around me.. 
Well, I saw this old man who drove a motorcycle (those motorcycle with a steel ‘table’ attached, we see doing business by the roadside). His motorcycle broke down and he was stuck in the middle of the traffic looking helpless, tired and lost. So, he stopped it on the roadside, slowly took off his helmet and try to cross the busy road. I wish I can do something to help. And that moment, the bus drove away and I lost my sight but still thinking what would happen to him. Saddening scene. I hope he is alright now :/

I like to walk around malls alone when I’m feeling stressful,, My way of escaping from hectic schedule and stress hehe. i bet u've ur own way , trust me mine is way much efective and easier than yours. dont hesitate to do the same.,. hehe 

So, I went to dinner alone and sat beside these two girls who were talking about their planning in life. I sense her difficulty in making decision to stop studying due to financial and personal problem and finding a job. Sometimes all we need is a chance to prove ourselves and get out of the comfort zone. I respect her for being strong and optimistic over the fact that she couldn’t get a higher pay due to her qualification but she also said this “I don’t mind working from bottom and put in more effort to earn more, doing it step by step. I might take a longer time but it’s fine”. I wish her all the best !!! I have the urge to tell her but I just couldn’t open my mouth that moment lol .

we all currently struggling with our activities, and survived each day of our life. this may sound hard but somehow i fu knw wht i mean , I feel better after stumbling across few scenes that touched my heart. its just good to have experienced on something, cuz afterall this kind of hindrance gonna filled our day days coming. Its like the world gives us chances to at least learning how to struggle one way or another. 

Giving your best :)

Relax and Live  :_:)

Why Reggae .. ???

Why Reggae .. ???

Pernah aku ditanya oleh teman, kenapa aku sangat mencintai reggae dari pada genre music yang lainnya. Kontan saya terkejut, karena menurut saya semua orang pasti mengerti mengapa seseorang bisa menjadi reggaelover – being a rastaman and Rastafarian. 

Baru ku inggat sekarang kalau mungkin mereka mau mendengar Cerita dan alasan saya menjadi Reggae lover.. sebenarnya gk ada yang special ttg awal aku mengerti music reggae and its attributes..  saya jadi bingung kalo harus memperinci kronologis jadi mungkin yang akan di ceritakan terlalu simple,; sesuai pilihan kata yang menurut gw lumayan sulit… Shiitt,, am not that stupid!!!

Well, Mulai rutin mendengarkan Lagu bob marley dan koleksi gambar Om Bob di awal tahun 2003. Setelah sebelumnya hanya  mendengar di radio dan mengenalnya di kaos salah satu om gw versi doeloe, yang menurut gw adalah salah satu kaos paling cool sedunia.. 
Lagu yang sering di dengarkan adalah tentunya “ No woman- No Cry, One Love “  2 lagu ini adalah lagu favourite saya waktu itu. ( jd teringat wkt sering pinjam Cd Player Class mate gw doeloe ) .. LOL

Selang waktu itu gw sering nanya dan berbagi cerita ke tman yang umurnya di atas gw mengenai reggae dan juga mencari majalah reggae meskipun waktu itu hampir gak ada, ! 
hot topics waktu it,:  Bob Marley,Reggae,Jamaica,dreadlocks,Rastafarian dll.

Waktu berlalu., gw mulai mengerti dan rasa cinta gw akan music reggae makin memuncak seperti sekarang ini, seiring making mengertinya aku akan reggae dan sejarah perkembangannya dan juga mengenai beberapa musisi dan band reggaeSeperti : .. Lucky dube, Marley Brothers, Alpha Blondie, Big Mountain, Black Uhuru, Tony Q, Cozzy, Shaggy dogg, Ras Muhammad, Maskavo roots dan banyak lainnya... 

Menurut gw,  : -- - > 

Musik Reggae membawa missi yang mulia, jiwa Reggae adalah hembusan nafas perdamaian dan persatuan, kesetaraan umat manusia. Reggae menebarkan vibe positif/getaran-getaran positif dan menghindari yang negatif. Reggae adalah perjuangan dan juga bentuk ungkapan jeritan kaum papa terhadap ketimpangan sosial dan ketidak adilan......

Nah kenapa musti pilih musik lain ? gue pilih reggae karena mewakili jiwa dan rasa, yang gue jalani setiap hari.  
banyak hal yang membuat gue pilih musik reggae antara lain spirit dari reggae itu sendiri yang menebarkan rasa cinta dan perdamaian kepada seluruh umat di dunia tanpa memandang perbedaan agama, ras,suku dan sosial.. Kalo boleh mengutip kata-kata Om Bob Marley "Reggae music is King Music", musik Reggae adalah musik yang disuguhkan untuk para bangsawan/Royal Music.

Ps :gk lebih dari sebuah corat coret ilustrasi kecintaan thdp music reggae!!!

Shallom
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Tak selalu bisa dijelaskan..

Semua orang bersemangat membahas dan mengeluarkan opini mereka tersendiri ttg cinta, tak pelak pengalaman seorang yang selama ini terpendam akhirnya terungkap. and guess what ?? semua itu karena mereka ingin mereka di artikan sebagai orang yang mengerti cinta... Pengalaman yang selama ini mereka bungkus rapi bahkan disimpan dalam memori yang telah rusak tiba2 saja, sifatnya udah bukan secret lagi.. 

Its worthwhile they say. 

Entahlah.. - apa karena saya tidak terlalu berani hingga tidak berterus terang ketika mendefinisikan arti cinta.. seharusnya ketika pengalaman mereka yang terlalu sederhanan pun bisa mereka gunakan sebagai referensi mutlak dalam mendefinisikan cinta, mengunakan hak saya sebagai individu mandiri yang pendapatnya tidak boleh diganggu gugat dapat saya keluarka tanpa khawatir akan balasan dari orang lain.. tentunya dengan syarat saya harus juga mengamini definisi definis yang lain dari mereka bahwa cinta itu.... bla bla bla 

Mungkin pengalaman yang saya ada belum satupun yang bisa merefleksikan ttg cinta yang sebenarnya. meskipun kadang pendapat kita tanpa kita sadari di amini oleh teman2 dan mereka kadang bukan hanya menyukai bagaimana kamu mengartikan cinta, tapi bahkan menganggap  pendapat kita itulah yang benar... Semua tidak bisa di jelaskan. !! bukan berarti kita tidak seharusnya mengerti ttg konsep ini, mencoba mengerti itu mungkin hal yang simple yang gk terlalu kita takutkan untuk kita lakukan, ketika disekitaran kita terlalu banyak bermunculan jutaan hal yang sudah terlanjur selalu membingungkan kita.... 

to be continued.... ^^

Mr Lopce

It matters if you just don’t give up

" Don't let what you cannot do interfere with what you can do "

- John Wooden -

Kita semua pernah terjatuh sesekali, bukan hanya secara fisik tapi juga secara emosional. Dan membangkitkan diri kita kembali, lebih mudah diucapkan daripada dilakukan. Kita tidak membutuhkan bakat khusus untuk menyerah atau berbaring di tengah jalan kehidupan dan berkata, "Aku berhenti!" Faktanya, jalan menuju keputusasaan dan kekecewaan yang kronis berawal dari sebuah hari yang normal yang berakhir dengan timbunan kekecewaan-kekecewaan kecil. Kekecewaan memunyai definisi "gagal untuk memenuhi atau memuaskan harapan dan keinginan", dengan kata lain, ketika kita menentukan diri kita untuk berharap akan sesuatu dan harapan itu tidak terpenuhi, kita menjadi kecewa. Kita merasa tertipu atau dikhianati.

Marilah kita hadapi kenyataan, tidak ada seorang pun dari antara kita yang akan pernah sampai ke tempat di mana kita tidak pernah lagi mengalami kekecewaan. Kita tidak bisa berharap untuk terlindung atau kebal dari setiap hal kecil. Kekecewaan adalah salah satu fakta dari kehidupan yang harus dihadapi oleh semua orang. Sering kali banyak orang membiarkan kekecewaan mereka terus menumpuk dan akhirnya menjadi terpuruk tanpa mengerti apa penyebabnya. Mereka kelihatannya tampak baik-baik saja, tapi sekarang mereka jatuh terbaring di jalan kehidupan tanpa tahu bagaimana terjadinya dan apa sebabnya. Banyak orang tidak menyadari bahwa masalah besar yang menghancurkan mereka ini dimulai sudah lama sebelumnya dengan beberapa kekecewaan kecil yang gagal mereka selesaikan.

Rasa sakit yang mendalam tidak datang begitu saja dari kekecewaan yang besar, seperti ketika kita gagal mendapatkan pekerjaan atau promosi yang kita inginkan. Rasa sakit emosional yang dalam bisa datang dari beberapa gangguan dan frustasi kecil. Itulah mengapa kita perlu tahu bagaimana caranya mengatasi kekecewaan kecil sehari-hari dan memunyai perspektif yang benar terhadap semua itu. Jika tidak, mereka dapat menjadi tidak terkendali dan meledak melebihi batasan.

Contohnya, bayangkan Anda memulai hari Anda dengan rencana dan jadwal di kepala Anda, dan Anda sudah cukup frustrasi dengan itu. Dalam perjalanan Anda ke kantor, jalanan yang macet membuat Anda terlambat. Lalu, ketika Anda akhirnya mulai bekerja, Anda mendengar seseorang di kantor menyebarkan gosip tentang Anda. Anda membuat kopi untuk menenangkan diri Anda, tapi kopinya tak sengaja tertumpah di baju Anda, yang hanya membuat masalahnya semakin rumit karena Anda akan menghadiri pertemuan (meeting) dengan atasan dan Anda tidak punya waktu untuk berganti pakaian!

Menghadapi hal-hal itu satu persatu secara terpisah memang terasa mengganggu, tapi ketika mereka semakin menumpuk, itu akan menjadi tak tertahankan. Lalu, dalam waktu yang hampir bersamaan, Anda mendapat laporan dari dokter tentang sesuatu hal yang tidak Anda harapkan. Dan di puncaknya, tunangan Anda menelpon, mengancam untuk membatalkan pernikahan Anda dengannya walaupun semua undangan telah dikirim! Bagaimana Anda akan menanggapinya? Apakah Anda akan tetap beriman, atau menemukan diri Anda penuh ketakutan dan sedang mengarah menuju kekecewaan dan keputusasaan? Semua kekecewaan dan frustasi kecil terhadap kemacetan, gosip di kantor, dan kopi yang tertumpah telah menjadi sebuah bencana. Dan ketika Anda menghadapi beberapa masalah serius seperti penyakit atau hubungan yang gagal, Anda menemukan diri Anda tidak siap untuk menghadapi semua itu. Jadi Anda terjatuh, menuju ketiadaan pengharapan dan keputusasaan.

Apa yang Anda lakukan saat kekecewaan datang? Saat kekecewaan memberatkan Anda seperti sebuah batu besar, Anda bisa membiarkannya menekan Anda sampai Anda merasa patah semangat, bahkan menjadi benar-benar menyerah, atau Anda bisa menggunakannya sebagai batu loncatan kepada hal-hal yang lebih baik. Belajarlah untuk beradaptasi dan menyesuaikan diri. Anda bisa melakukannya! 

Hadapi kekecewaan dan cepatlah membuat penyesuaian yang dibutuhkan untuk menangani situasi itu. Tuhan memunyai hal-hal yang lebih baik untuk Anda, dan Dia akan menolong Anda. Just Believe  

God is good, Even When people are not ^^

Daripada berkonsentrasi pada semua masalah Anda dan menjadi putus asa, arahkan fokus Anda kepada hal hal yang dapat mengerakkan niat anda untuk memulai dan mengali bagian positif dalam diri anda yang adalah energi yang tiada habisnya.. 

Kita mungkin telah terjatuh, tapi kita tidak harus tetap tergeletak. Bangkitlah, walaupun itu berarti Anda membutuhkan waktu dan proses.

Shalom

Misteri Kita

Have we become so blind that we no longer see what we are looking at? 

We are the only reality on this mythical land but 

somehow we have become so deluded among the misguided minutes of our wall clocks to become merely some fictional stories on a real land.!! 

Seberapa jauh kita harus berjalan dalam hidup ini sampai kita berhenti sejenak untuk bertanya kepada diri sendiri apakah yang kita inginkan? kapan langkah kaki ini bisa beristirahat sejenak untuk memberi ruang recovery agar kita sekiranya bisa memperjelas hal hal yang kita keluhkan? 

Sebenarnya tak pantas bagi kita untuk begitu lama tersadar akan adanya beberapa kebenaran yang kita dapatkan yang sejatinya berasal dari kebohongan imaji yang kita kejar.! 

begitulah, kadang kita mencari, mengejar dan melakukan, serta meiliki dan menikmati kebahgaiaan sesaat yang tak lebih adalah kebahagiaan yang berdasarkan obsesi semata. 

Mungkin keterbatasan kata2 atau kalimat yang saya gunakan disini hanya akan membingungkan teman2 semua yang membaca postingan ini tapi the point is i really am trying to share you something i've been complaining about these lately days. 

So what ?
apa aku harus mengalah terhadap kekurangan saya.?

saya kira beberapa dari kalian pastinya akan setuju dengan saya untuk tetap melanjutkan dan mengekspresikan semuanya dalam kesederhanaan saya sebagai seorang yg bisa menulis.

Jadi mari kita berhenti sejenak dan memberi sedikit waktu untuk memikirkan langkah selanjutnya, berpikir sejenak tentang keberadaan misterius kita di dunia ini. apa misi dan tujuan sebenarnya yang hendak kita penuhi dengan kehadiran kita di dunia ini.

Kita tidak akan bisa hanya hidup untuk mengejar yang kita inginkan. yang lebih kita perlukan adalah merenungi apa yang hendak kita kejar, kenapa harus di kejar dan bagaimana akan kita kejar semua impian kita. !! atau mungkin kita harus lebih berani berpikir bahwa ada makna tersembunyi yang sebenarnya belum bisa kita pahami ttg kehadiran dan arti kita di bumi ini.

Mungkin kita harus sadar atau kadang menyadarkan diri bahwa keberadaan kita di dunia ini disertai dengan tugas atau misi tertentu. Semua itu Misteri.! and udah saatnya kita mengetahui kebenaran dan bahwa Misteri itu bukan selalu tentang sesuatu yang tidak bisa dipahami

I have been born in the middle of nowhere walking towards the unknown, tomorrow remains a secret to me and yesterday is just the ashes of a wasted life, but today is nothing but the reflection of yesterday and the hope of tomorrow, today is the grace that I was born to embrace, today is the battle that I am here to fight, and if I make it through the day till the dawn of a new story, I think I might immortalize the myth of my existence on this land, wisely enough to pass through this road, happily enough to enjoy the distance of my life.

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Till then

reflection

" Courage is being yourself everyday in a world that tells you to be someone else "

Woke up this morning with a lot on my mind, i just paused n sat at a chair at the moment. just wondering, how the outcome of the future going 2 b...??

sometimes i wonder if the decision that was in the past were the right one that i had made... 

oooh wellll, the question that frequently appears:  if, could,what, when.. those are only words...

life is basically a learning tool.. we pick from where we left off n move on with our life, as if nothing had happened, just carry on with your life n decisions that u had made !

Whoever you are, those decision u had made definetely defines you ^^

Till then -

Lucky me

Dear Bloggers..

Have you ever consider to think about why do we always fight with the person closest to us?
I always keep on mind and trying still to be positive even when i'm arguing and getting mad with someone close to me, relatives, girlfriend,  friends and sometimes my parents. 

Its not only the quantities of the fight we had but also about how we tend to quickly and deeply getting mad with someone that closed to us., thats what people used to forget \, people somehow didnt really do care about it. me too, i admit it.

I believe it's because it's so much easier to pick a fight with someone who is closer to us compared to someone who is distant. It's easier to forgive or to be forgiven by someone who knows you by the heart. 

besides, our temper and feelings are what we definetely need to share and express, and those who closed to us are always gonna be the one. We shared good times together and then in another hand, we also arguing and then fought each other big time also. thats what is called Shared, believe it or not sharing is not only when we are given and the give back, its more about everything that we had experienced together.

People say bickering, especially in a relationship draws them apart. I say why keep it comfortable? If it's always locked in you, eventually it would find its way out. And that's when your other half would learn of your true colours.

I've always been a hot tempered one. Stubborn and egoistic. I know it's not something to be proud of, but these are my flaws. I'm glad to be accepted despite it, although I know it always get the best of me. I'm so thankful that my other half had endured this this far.

I just feel like the luckiest person. :)

Hope I don't run out of luck!

Loner

Just now right after skype with her and done some blogwalking.. I'm  scared..
My mind suddenly think of what if I become a loner again..?
 

I don't wanted to become a loner again.. not again !

Everyday waiting someone to come across my mind
and everyday waiting the time to pass..
Everyday waiting something to motivate my body
and everyday waiting for tears to drop off from my eyes..

Scared to become a loner again.. 

i've been alone for too many times, 

its not how longer i've become a loner but its the range of time that took me to be alone again,. 

i've been in realationship for too many times nothing but only to proved, i'm the silly loner. Its a pity !!

the more i get involved the more i become a loner again. guess what ? its cause by the duration of my relationship that never last too long. been in relationship for one year is my record so far. I hate it

That is my darkest nightmare... getting involved and then feeling alone at last.
It makes me unbreathable, unmotivated and hoping for a bright sunray from cracks in my room.. 

I Pray that my loneliness may spur me into finding something to live for, and great enough to die for. -- Dag Hammarskjold