You Tell me ?

Love; We think about it, sing about it, dream about it, lose sleep worrying about it.
When we don't have it, we search for it; when we discover it, we dont know what to do with it;
When we have it, we fear losing it.
It is the constant source of  both pleasure and  pain and we can't predict which it will be from one moment to the next. It takes courage and honesty to experienced.

It is a short word, easy to spell, difficult to define, impossible to live without.

Why dont u tell me what is love for you, really ?? 8)

Love, It hits good !

My life has been great this lately, nothing much that happened to made me happy but i thank God for those few great things that happened in my life, and for the very special person that have been with me.

I love the new daily activity that keep me busy, tidy and well organized. I love me.
I spent my days mostly at my room, all alone.. guess whats there that makes me Happy ??
Love. ! oh yes., I'm falling in love ! with a very special and beautiful girl ever.
She knows exactly how to fill the unfulfilled things in me, and I have the passion to do the same. we both worship our time together, Its Happiness. !

Its sad that i dont have much more idea to write down here, i'm in the middle of doing something and its kinda complicate for thinking about a lot of things at the same time., I think of do the writting and here i am now but i cant really do it cuz i'm thinking too much.  its should be good and give me more idea and more words but truth is its not, I'm now thinking about a lot of things.. and its complicated !

No, i dont think of lots things - i'm thinking about her only,. over and over again., A lot.!
guess how happy i am, ? :) :)!

None can't escape love,.right people ?

#Till then

Love is Love

When I love someone, I certainly want that someone to be mine.
I want to spend all of my time with her
I want to love her right and make her realize how dear she is to me.
For me, the feeling is important.
I know some people definitely have the same thought.
LOVE is what matters the most.
That’s how love works: from the heart and transform itself into deed.

However, look at our surroundings! Can you find anything as pure and beautiful love?
Beat me, you can never find anything like that. Even if you find it, the ratio is 1:100.
Nowadays, all that matter is SEX.
I don’t despise sex and people who agree to this statement.
I’m no clean too. I sometimes do the dirty talks and also have dirty thoughts.
I just don’t understand how people have misunderstood things.

The “be mine” is NOT about you surrender yourself in the act as in sex.
Love and sex are two very different things.
Once, sex was an act of love. Sex is to be sacred but not anymore.
Sex is a lust.
A lust is the act of wanting someone physically. Only the body that is important.
No more, no less.
Hence, love is no sex and vice versa.


I don’t say that sex is wrong. It’s right when the timing is right.
It means you can manifest your love by surrendering yourself in the sexual act with the right person.
Sex is only right when you do it out of LOVE and NOT out of LUST.
And one thing, you can never use this as an excuse saying:
“Of course we did it because we loved each other. Who are you to say that what we did was out of lust and not love?”
Yeaaaah…., OK!! I’m no one. And that’s because you “loved” each other.

If you truly did it out of love then you’ll never say what supposed to be “love” become “loved”. Because when a person truly loves you, sex will never be the point which will make him or her stays by your side. It’s because of who you are.
It’s because of how precious and how such a darling you are to him or her.
Because if sex is the reason why he or she stays now, then they won’t stay as long as you need them to.
Like the feeling after the orgasm that will never last longer, that’s how the little thing you called or misunderstood as love will fade away.
They will fade like the bubbles in the air before you know it.
So, do it with the right person. Do it when the time is right.
And do it out of love.


ps : you will always know when u r in love, just dont complicate ur mind. stand and fight, do your very best. for in the end you'll realize the true love of ur life is what u have always needed.

Till then

Me + You

When I say I love you. You say you don't deserve it. 

When I say I need you . You say I deserve someone better. 

When I say my life is better with you. You say I don't know any better. 

But when I kiss you, you say I love you, When I have to go, you say I need you. 

When I am with you, you know, that there is no better feeling then our love coming together and that is something we both deserve.

Take me as I am, not who I was.. 

Please don't judge me, and I won't judge you,!
and If you love me, Let it be beautiful.

Hey, Life

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Everything happens,it's just happens without any reasons that's my theory because i've tried over and over to find explanation, but Unfortunately it doesn't make any sense, 

For me life is like a war,you have to be a fighter to get whatever you want, you'll never get anything ,if you keep playing the victim role,you have to fight as much as you can, you are the only one who can choose which role suits you !. 

So listen carefully dear life ,i'm going to fight till the end and keep going in my life and i won't give you the chance to win this game ,i'm the winner and i'll always be!. that's my choice !

Rule your life fellas.. till then

If it's love, it'll never be too late (part 1)

A short Story, Happy reading guys..

My life is really been great. I love the me who has everything at my content – almost everything even regarding relationships. Since there’s this FACEBOOK, I can make friends as many as I want to. Through this social network, I’m able to update all the things about me - photos, status and events. For all that I’ve been aware of; some people came to like me as in like. And honestly, I always feel awesome whenever people - both I know and I don’t know, make their love confessions to me (girls always feel proud of themselves about this). It’s not that I’ll return their feelings at once and be what they want me to be but, I’ll just appreciate what they have felt about me and of course on my part, I want us to remain friends only. However, for certain people, I may have come to like for sharing ideas. I want to know how compatible we could be and see all the possibilities if we could be lovers. That’s where it’s all begun. 

I came to have this someone. He’s not someone I know. He’s a stranger who lives miles away from me. I must be out of my mind to say “yes” when he said “I like you”. My “yes” that moment didn’t represent any of my feelings towards him. For me, it was just a FLING – the feeling of likeness for a moment. So, I told myself to give it a try and see how it’ll turn out. Play safe, I told myself. 

And so it goes, this certain someone has been with me this past three years. He’s been my lover who I’ve never met in person, even once. It was funny but true. Facebook, YM, and Skype were the ways to get to each other. We barely made phone calls and barely sent texts. There were a lot of ups and downs too as if we were in a serious relationship. We promised to meet each other many times but we never pushed through the plan we made. There were always some things which came up in the middle of the plan of our meeting. I knew it was me who didn’t have the effort at all to meet him. We even broke up two or three times because we lost contact. I knew it was me again who did this most of the time. The truth about this was, I did it on purpose because as I’ve said I’ve never had that electric feeling. I didn’t see the need to meet him at all.

You’re saying I’m a bad girl? Well, I won’t say I’m not but, don’t be judgmental. You’re not even half way reading this yet. Still long way to go 

 

Okay..

So, last December 19, 2012 I went home for two days to attend my younger sister’s wedding. I let him know what I was up to. Again, we promised to meet each other. I was in Bandung, very near to him but I didn’t tell him that I was there. After spending two nights, I went to Yogyakarta in the morning, 8 hours by train – 246 miles away from him. Nothing happened. I enjoyed my stay in Yogyakarta with my eldest brother and I forgot him. 

But then after spent my two nights there, I had to pick up my professors (husband and wife) from the university where I study at. Their flight will arrive from Manila at 00:00, so I have to find way to get to Soekarno Hatta International Airport on time. Therefore at 08:00 in the morning I was already at the Tugu Train Station. Along the way, I listened to the music while played game on my Ipad. 

Two hours before reaching Gambir Train Station, my phone rang. It was from my professor, the husband, saying that they could not make it to Jakarta because the expiration of his passport is due in 3 months. Since he couldn’t come, his wife tagged along with him. I was really lost my focus after the call and before I realized it, I ended up at another train station rather than Gambir. The place is so new and I don’t know anyone. So I tried to enter the Alfamart and asked if there’ll be any train to Yogyakarta tonight but every train was fully booked. There’ll be only a train available tomorrow afternoon at 04:00 Bandung – Yogyakarta. There were only 3 seats left. I told them to reserve me a seat while I made a phone call. I tried to reach him, that someone. 

I was pissed that his phone wasn’t even active. Then I rang my brother and told him everything about the event, my location, etc; that I’ll be heading to Yogyakarta by tomorrow. Lastly, I tried to phoned him again, that someone.. “maaf nomor yang anda tuju sedang tidak aktif atau berada di luar jang..” operator’s voice pissed me off even more. I gave up calling him. Instead I left him a message hoping he’ll read once he activates his phone. I went to the Alfamart again and bought two tickets – to Bandung tonight and to Yogyakarta the next day. That was the only option left. I called a friend who stays in Bandung to pick me up at the train station. But she told me to take a cab and drop by the Bandung Immigration Office at Suci and she’ll pick me up there. I was almost fallen asleep when my phone buzzed. It was him. Small talk and I felt a sudden relief. I promised to contact him when I arrived. Once the train stopped at the station, I walked straight to the south exit and took a taxi to Suci. Bandung was so damn cold - it’s still the same as it was back in 2007 when I was still studying there. Along the way, I couldn’t reach my friend anymore. Her phone was off. So I called him and told him about what had happened. His response??? He’ll pick me up! He said, I have to wait for about 30 minutes because it’s quite far from his place. I agreed. I waited – waited for someone I’ve never thought I would meet. I can’t stop myself checking my wrist watch. I was counting the minutes. I was thinking of the right words to say, thinking of what I should do when he’s in front of me. My mind worked really hard even though I was tired like hell.

Then suddenly, there he was. All the words that I’ve composed neatly to say to him, faded. Without saying a word or two, he asked me to hop in his motorbike. I did exactly as he said and we left through the darkest night .

Hm, my dearest readers, you’re wondering what will happen next, aren’t you? “What will he do to me?” is really a “big thing”. You never know what will happen. Work on your mind for awhile; I’ll be up with the next part sooner...

*Francoise* 

When i miss you

Ketika saya kangen, Saya tau kmu juga lagi kangen. Super Huh ? hehe 

Hei u down there, I just wondered how u are and if u miss me at all, cuz i miss you. A lot !! i wish i can rip u out of my dream and hug you. 

Wishing u weren't so far away..

Many people says that when we missed some one it means she/he is missed u too, i do believe it. i'm a person that really give a damn about harmony and stability. for that it means i only missed someone for they are also missed me too. lol - there is always a feedback of what am doing. Not really everytime, pretty big time though. hehe

I dont say i've always that way, i'm just trying to accustom my self to make sure the continuity of my -relationships. Well, some weren't agree but there are many who agree. and I only care about that.. (-_-)

There is a reason why two people stay together, They give each other something no body else can. 

Skype with her and yet still miss her so much..

Hadomi hau nia doben... :* :*

12.12.12

9 days before the doomsday and i'm just like Whatever ...
what i do care is that how in 2010 and 2011 there was a lot of reactions and people got panicked and freaking out about 2012 but now its 12/12/12 and no one gives a shit, its kinda funny huh |?
Well, thats better. Everyone is busy living their life..

Todays date is the last repetitive date we will ever see, so i decided to do something positive, something that not in vein.. but well, let it be secret.. hehe:xd

and Happy Birthday for those who celebrate their birthday today,
espceially to someone out there that used to be my very best friend and partner in life, Someone that wasn't even true.. Happy birthday D. oh yes, i've missed you so much.


hope that the doomsday as we all concerned are not gonna happen...

Well afterall its still just a date , a beautiful one.12/12/12. " at least for me.

Live up\/

be your own hero

Kadang ketika kita berharap akan ada yang menemani kita menghadapi masalah yang kebetulan yang tiada hentinya, saat itulah kita tahu bahwa yang kita andalkan adalah diri kita sendiri.

beberapa teman, keluarga dan pacar etc.. mungkin sudah sering ngomong that they'll be there for us. the thing is, they didnt meant to being there for us to deal with all of our problem. mereka ada untuk kita sometimes means mereka bersedia untuk menjadi saksi, Hanya saksi. !! of how we struggled and fight. Funny huh ??  

To be continued...

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